Day 5

Dear READER,


When you have so much to say but can't find the words or the desire to say them........that's where I am.



I am so blessed. Life can sometimes be hard and very stressful but I am so blessed, because I have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. Looking back on the events of today and the tender mercies I was given, I wonderful what would my life be like if I didn't have the gospel in it.

A friend of mine has gone through a whole lot in her life. Things that no one should have to suffer, but she has, and she is still struggling today. BUT she pushes forward with hope and confidence. Always asking the Lord for help and guidance in what she should be doing. Her faith is inspiring.
Satan (the devil) works so hard to bring us down. He wants those with faith and hope to feel useless, unwanted, alone, afraid, sad, angry, confused. It is when you are doing everything you can to follow Christ and do what God would have you do, that is when he Satan comes the hardest. He brings everything he has because it wants us to stray from the path. He wants to shake our faith!!!
The things is --- his power is nothing compared to that of the Saviors. It's not even close. Yes we will suffer, and struggle and sometimes we might even fall. BUT the Savior is always there to pick us back up.

The power of the priesthood is real. I experienced it today. That same priesthood that Christ gave to his apostles. It's on the earth in these latter-days and I got to experience the power of it today.
I have a really hard time asking for priesthood blessings. I don't know many brethren I trust enough to give me a blessing and if I really need one I'm to scared and prideful to ask for one. Today I was standing in the room with someone and had this overwhelming feeling to ask for a blessing. I have needed one for a long time, but with my Dad being gone, my lack of caring home teachers, and a new bishop, you know the rest I haven't gotten one. Today I was standing in this room and I just felt...................Safe, i guess is the word. I don't know what it was but my mouth just opened and there I was asking for a blessing. This says a lot about the priesthood holder in the room as I was comfortable enough with him and trusted him to be the mouth piece of the Lord.
The Lord truly knows us. He knew everything I needed to hear. My fears, my pain, my sorrow...he knew it all. And I don't tell people how I really feel - EVER because I like to be strong to be there for others even when it hurts inside. BUT the Lord I can't hide it from him. We are so blessed to have the priesthood on the earth today. So Blessed.

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I picked up my dry cleaning - well actually it was three pairs of pants that I had taken in. It cost me an arm and a leg. Oh my heavens I could have gone out and bought new pants for what I paid to have them tailored. I think I may have been ripped off.

The dollar store is one of those stores I go into thinking oh it's the dollar store I'm going to come out saving so much money and I'm sure I would if I didn't think i could just buy everything in the store because 'well it's a dollar, big wooop'. BUT a dollar adds up and sometimes really fast. Even knowing that probably won't stop me from shopping there, it's a bit addicting. Now if they would create a dollar post office that way i could send of the cool stuff I buy for cheap instead of having to scrimp and save in order to send things.

I decorated a bit in my apartment for St. Patricks day which is coming up soon. It wasn't much but it's put me in the mood. I'm going to be out of town for it but I hear that where I'm going they turn the river green in celebration of St. Patty's Day. I am so EXCITED -- I'll have to remember to take pictures.


Yours Truly,


Jenessa